Monday, August 14, 2006

A different perspective…



So I was just in a meeting and I wanted to get fired. Another friend (not Brew) of mine has just gotten laid off from his job as a manager at Starbucks and is not taking the six months of pay to try and become a stand up comic. Mind you he’s doing a horrible but recently at work my job has been a real drag, personality conflicts and crappy projects has resulted in me being a poor worker, not to mention that I had shifted my entire person into getting ready for the gig in Africa. So I had a meeting today where my supervision was asking me if I was happy doing what I was doing, so forth and so on. I conceded that I wasn’t so thrilled with where I was and that what ever course “they” say fit was fine with me. No, Jules I wasn’t so blunt and hard about the whole thing. I played the whole thing or really smooth. When I first got the email I prayed about it because it’s never a “good news, we’re all happy” sort of thing. After I prayed I realized that for me, in my current funk, getting fired could be just what I need to get the water boiling again. Perhaps God is telling me something using the contentment of not being tied to Scripps anymore. It used to be about the security of gainful employment, now it’s the appreciation of letting Gods hand move outside of your awareness and control.

I’m really pulled to building something out of my conversations in Africa and perhaps getting canned would have been that catalyst. We would have had X months to live off of the package and I could have found freelance gigs around the area, there are quite a few, completed my video work for HHI and continue to build something from the ground up, the old fashioned way.

Rather than that opportunity, we’re going to be working together to see what we can do to harmonize our chakra with the Scripps lighthouse of peace, HR is full of pussies.

Isn’t it funny how our perspectives differ?

10 comments:

tnmommieof2 said...

Nice one hunny....and here I was trying NOT to worry so much!!!!

I know we will be fine whatever you choose to do. I just, well,
I worry....

Diana said...

One man's crappy situation is another man's dream come true.

Brewster said...

I think Mullins being unhappy is a sign of the apocolypse. Dude you're always cheery, or at least have a positive outlook. I mean you liked high school!

If it is so bad that HR is talking to you because you don't seem happy you need to find other work. Find something easy and non-stressful so you can go home and work hard on networking to become super-christian video man.

Or become a music video producer then hook me up with Jessica Simpson!

mullinz8 said...

I explained the situation to Jules last night at dinner and she saw things from my point of view and agreed it was a stupid situation. For a taste of the whole thing rewind almost five weeks now where I was helping on a shoot. My roll was to do craft-services and make notes for post production, which I supervise. I wasn’t supposed to anything else. Taking camera notes means that I sit around waiting for the camera to roll and note time code.

The following weeks after the shoot I began posting the footage together, no worries, everything is going fine. So then I leave the country, two weeks after the shoot, the lady who was “producing” the shoot goes to my supervisor –while I’m out of the country- and tells her that I wasn’t doing much to contribute to the shoot. When I return I see the lady and ask her what’s going on and she tells me that because of budget concerns she can’t have me on the next shoot. When I have the meeting with the supervisor she tells me the producer asked that I not go on field shoots anymore.

It’s stupid crap like this that keeps bugging me, then to lie to my face and not have the balls to tell me she had a problem with me.

After six years here every time I try and be assertive and bring new energy to the table I get pushed back as being too aggressive. When I do something at the same speed as everyone else I’m considered to be slacking.

The HR thing is that Scripps is terrified to fire anyone because they are so image conscience that any bad press is a millstone around their neck.

This is the environment I’m supposed to strive to be a part of? Corporate America, the dream we all dream of is a joke.

I love what I do I just don’t care for the environment or the people anymore.

I am looking around and Scripps knows that, to an extent.

Jamison said...

Yes, i am glad I dont work in a corporate environment... LOTS of office politics, tattle-telling, and brown nosing...

And, no offence, but when I was in the corp enviro, it was always the women who were evil in those departments...

Again, I am not a sexist, but I worked at Lenscrafters for over 2 years, when I got a female manager, everything went nuts and I quit. At Alltel, everything was grand and fun, except the fact that my manager was a moron and treated us like 5 year olds... and she was a woman...
Why, women... why are you like such>

Brewster said...

I hate to say it, but unless you get away from corporate america, that type of crap will follow you. I suspect it happens at places like HHI too. Although there your work would at least be meaningful.

Jamison said...

i am sure it happens at the school i work for an no doubt at universities, but being in my own department and being the ONLY one in my department with no real defined 'boss' I dont see a lick of it...

bigsip said...

I don't notice it where I work, but it's because I don't care enough to notice it.

Jamison said...

You'd notice whether you cared or not, trust me...
it aint happening mush where you work, trust.

Jamison said...

...other than the occational manager that has no idea what the people under them are doing... but thats typical...